how how how !! why is my life so miserable i really cant take it anymore, its about my cca. i've been going for volleyball trainings for the past like almost 2-3 months. that was in 2006. but it wasnt counted as my cca. someone said i was wasting my time there and it is not even my cca and why do i have to care, but i really love volleyball. so now i have to make a choice whether to choose volleyball or other ccas. cause yt they all [sherm and lyns] also finding cca. then ytd, mdm tan went to find ks because of todays thing. then she said if i write my name down i jiu join volleyball le, then i thought till after sch i still dont know how. then yeeteng they all already waiting for us quite long le. then ks ask me if i wan to write or not de, i very confused leh. then i wrote le. would u join a cca for ur passion but u sort of dislike it for another reasons? or join a cca and try other things and be happy? i kept thinking, cause last time i kept asking ks to help me in the end i went for the trainings but coach said if i wanted to go and play play i can, but cant go in sch team. yah i know i scared if i quit, like dui bu qi the other vb players like that. then someone said why you always want to care about what other people want to think. i really dont know how lor, then kohser will lose a partner -.- then less 1 person pick up balls, then i scared if i join other cca i would lose the passion for vb. AIYA WHATEVER no one understands lah, i dont even understand myself how would other people understand me. its like time passing very fast when i start thinking about that question. its like should i join volleyball? then pei ks, i train well? or should i join other ccas for my happiness . friend or happiness, i really dont know. i keep thinking vb took away my time during the dec hols because almost half my hols was vb trainings. I REALLY REALLY REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO CHOOSE, CAN ANYONE HELP ME? i tried thinking on the positive side i told my self it would be okay blahblah. bt the negative thoughts keep coming back. JUST HELP ME ANYONE AHHHHHHHH.