The old lame and cheerful zikun will be back, but when?

I feel so sick sick sick sick weak weak weak and tired.. Today din go to work again, tomorrow going back but i think i wont have any energy. Holidays are bored, i miss... school, 2e4 classroom, and everyone in 2e4. It's funny when i miss schooling days when now's the holiday. Because i wanted holidays when it was schooling. This year's holiday is the most bored one, why..

I dread losing things, therefore i am afraid to have something because i know i will lose it someday. So i rather not have anything. Okay its lame, but in my life i really hate the feeling of losing things, who doesn't ?